People who've never dealt with constant food thoughts genuinely can't grasp how overwhelming it gets. I compare it to how some people relate to gambling. For plenty of folks, gambling barely registers, like 'eh, whatever, I'll go do something else' and that's the whole thought, done. But someone else gets consumed by it around the clock, and food's exactly that 'meh whatever' thing for them.
I've fought this constant food fixation my whole life and it's draining. Pretty much gave up at one point, figured I'd rather stay heavy than keep fighting the endless battle against overeating, since the moment I stopped pouring nearly all my energy into it, the weight came right back. Hoping this medication changes that. Still too early in my run for big results, but every single time I notice I'm able to hold off a bit, sixty or ninety minutes, before eating something I'm craving, it genuinely shocks me.
And yeah, still haven't told my mother either. She'd act supportive to my face but judge me to other people behind my back.